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[Aug. 31st, 2005|07:50 pm] |
...it's like when my head and heart are wanting two different things.
This song, for example:
Sunshine (At My Funeral)
My head says "I LOVE THIS SONG, it is so good" but my heart says "sad. there is something sad related to this song. i don't want to listen to it anymore. what is sad? oh. oh fuck, that's right. that is sad. oh. hm."
The similarities almost make me want to cry.
I really like Jared, but I cannot ignore the facts:
1. I can't say that he really acts any differently around/towards me than he does than anybody else. I can't say that he likes me, which makes me iffy as far as pursuing it. It scares me.
2. He's a lot like Scott in multiple aspects. Looks, personality, goddamned vast intelligence, and that sense of humor... even the little things like identical away messages [away!].
Sigh.
Like Beth says, though...
It might not be a bad thing. Maybe he is my "type," and Scott is the closest thing to a type I've ever had. It's not like I had any problems with him... he broke up with me. It's not like I didn't like him. I'm still attracted to those qualities.
Sigh.
Let's take this one step at a time.
Let's just find out if he even likes me.
If there is even a chance. |
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